Excerpt - Discovering the Joy Within - Allyson M. Deese

Discovering the Joy Within excerpt – Allyson M. Deese

Jordyn sat down on the sofa in despair. Her heart felt heavy and tears streamed down her face. He still didn’t know that she was carrying his child. Jordyn was pregnant with their baby. Jordyn sighed heavily. She did not know whether to feel hurt or angry. She just knew the tears wouldn’t stop as her old familiar friend, Pain, tugged at her heart.
When Eric left, He assumed that Jordyn would still take care of his “precious” car. Wrong! As soon as Jordyn mustered up the strength, she went outside around midnight with a baseball bat, and wore his car out.
Once she busted every window, and ripped up the already deteriorating cloth top, she then took her house keys and wrote the inconsiderate dog a note: “I hate you Eric. Love, Jordyn”. She knew that the damage that she did to his car would never compare to the pain and hurt that he had caused her. But, it made her feel a little better, temporarily.
The week that followed Eric’s leaving was the most traumatic thing that Jordyn had experienced since the twins passed. The stress and pain of the only man she had ever really loved, other than her father, rejecting her, especially for an older, ugly woman was traumatic. It was more than her heart and her baby could handle. At only seven and a half weeks into her pregnancy Jordyn had a severe miscarriage. With the death of her unborn baby, along with the loss of her step-children, whom she loved as they were her very own, Jordyn fell deeper into depression than she ever had before. Jordyn suffered silently. Only she knew of her miscarriage. No one else knew that she had once again lost a part of her own being. There was no funeral this time. This time there was just a medial procedure that she endured on her own.
After it was over and nothing of her pregnancy remained, other than her memories, Jordyn went home to an empty house that matched the empty life that had become hers once again. And now she didn’t even have her job. She had no idea how she would pay her bills from month to month.
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